I’m the physco horrible one for having loved you. For loving you. And you let them say it, and you know it’s wrong but you sit back and do nothing.

First suicidal thoughts in weeks, I feel so weak

how did I become so easily to hate, how did I become someone so easily to turn into a monster. why does everyone hate me

Relief

They’ll kiss me and I’ll have to hold back tears because their lips aren’t yours.

They aren’t you. None of them are you. I’ve spent too many nights now using guys to try to feel you, he held me tight and all I did was close my eyes and try to look for you. And you’re never there